so i know it's been a looong while since i last posted. i've had my bone marrow transplant. if you want the details of that endeavor, you should take a look at my mothers blog. it's got more of the details of the complications. and believe me, there were complications. i came out with a clot in my jugular, along with a bunch of other things, i got veno-occlusive disease for a week. gained and lost 20kg over the course of 2 weeks. had at least 2 mini strokes. to put it simply, it was nothing short of a roller coaster ride. I've gotten at least 2 things from this though. 1st of all, I'm still alive, and presumably cancer free. which i am eternally grateful for. second of all, something inside me broke in all this, and i am a different person. i can't explain it really. except that i don't get mad. instead, i get sad. i don't keep bad things in anymore. i let them out. that's the best explanation i can give.
